Azumanga Daioh- Osaka Allergies

it's really friggin retarded and funny
go watch it
http://www.animeseason.com/azumanga-daioh/

Azumanga Daioh Osaka Oh My GAH

LOL LOL LOL
omg damn funny
neco

before school

going to school soon for french
today's lecture is e-lecture
which is great coz i really hate that module
then going to buy swimming suit with weishan
coz we're gonna go swimming and she's gonna teach me how to tread water
lol
coz we wanna learn diving, and one of the req is to be able to tread water for 10 mins
and to swim for 300m
and i can't swim for nuts (like, i try to swim, but i just stay at the same spot, and i cannot bring my head up to breathe when doing all the diff strokes)
so yeah
feeling a little embarrased about showing off my thunder thighs
but i really wanna learn diving

ok i really dun feel like going to sch, i love slacking at home

i have decided to stop obsessing over SHINee
one mth is enough already
i was thinking, if onew was not in shinee, and i actually knew of him, wld i like him that much
i dun think i will
becoz he is after all a normal person and one that's not w/in my grasps lol

this sem's modules are all rather complex
but two of em are really interesting
especially cultures
economics is not bad imo
but the impt thing is whether i can score for them or not
already lagging behind in the culture readings, and there's a mountain load of them already
shall spend more time reading and less on youtube
and make more effort for french, i'm actually really interested in doing well for that (for the 1st time in my life i actually am interested in school stuff)
and try to get "doing social research" kns i totally lost

i'm feeling studious
hope this lasts

shineerocksmyworldfornow

they're coming to singapore
but i'm not gonna see them at all
they might not come back to singapore
but i won't go see them

i won't

i will go exercise on that day
lose weight
and let my heart bleed out
lose more weight
do something for myself

i am rational
their autographs mean nothing
just look at the davidtao autograph
it's there
rotting away
and i dislike him now

autographs do nothing to make me like them or their songs more
i will still obsess about them, esp onew, even if i will never get to see them in my whole life
not like they will remember me
or that they'll really care whether i'm there or not
even if i'm trampled to death by the fangirls they also won't care (ok maybe they will, but only for a split sec when someone tells them abt it and they think, "we have crazy fans in sg", then go on with their lifes)
so i shall go do something for myself
i'm happy that i'm on the same island as them for the 4.5 days they're here
:)

i am a rational, 20-going-to-21, understanding shinee auntie fan, who enjoys supporting them, w/o feeling a need to meet them in real life, or for them to ever see/know/hear/appreciate me.

thank you

i feel so at peace now knowing that i'm not going
i was so stressed when i heard abt it and then later saw that i had to buy another album there with the special fansigning pass to see them and there was only 1000 of them
but now
aaahhh
AHAHAHA why shld i stress myself, or fight with those fangirls on that day just to see a bunch of really cute kids who will never remember me ?

i'm at peace ... OM~

Persepolis - Eye of the Tiger

LOL
loved the graphic novel

happy

i'm feeling really contented now
munching on some guava
relaxed because there's no school tomorrow

french seriously confuses me
everyone seems to be getting it except for me
the teacher even asked whether it was my first lesson today
:( what is conjugate anyway ???
sighs will work hard to get it
it's seriously not worth s/u-ing

i'm just typing this as i'm waiting for a video to load
so i know it's really nothing much interesting
but yeah
nothing else to do online

i hate growing up
i hate new year's day
i hate my birthday
i can never really be happy during these two dates
i've felt this way since young, i remember crying at night at the prospect of me growing old, and my parents growing old and dying
i really wonder why people get so happy on new yr's and their bdays
-____-"
do they really want to finish school, and go out to work, pay debt after debt (esp the middle class people), do whatever else they do in life, then grow old, retire, wait for death, and die
i do not want to grow up
but i cannot stop time
i am but nobody, in the bigger scheme of things

omg my mood totally swinged from happy to emo through this post lol
but yeah, that's how i am
i feel emo and contented at the same time
i'm full of crap
lol
shall go watch the vid now

ranting

i often wished that i was born in a well-to-do family
or that my family now is well-to-do
than i can do so many things i want to do
buy the things that i want
go overseas and experience foreign culture
get my farm


i'm starting to lead less of a loner school life :)
HAHAHA
especially with the return of wei shan from india
meet her sometimes for lunch
and also when going home
and today i hung out with one of my nicer course mates
she had 4 hr break and i had 3
(i have damn long breaks this sem, utter waste of time, urgh, and it's 5-day week, and what's more the tutorial schedule for 2 of my core mods will be pushed back from schedule for 1-2 weeks due to the screwed up timetable and the public holidays)
i got a really good timetable last sem, and this sem i have the worse kind
but at least it gave me a chance to hang out with that course mate LOL

and french is totally traumatising me
the teacher came in during the first tutorial and started spouting french O___O""
and i was rather blur, and just trying to say the words correctly
omg it's hard
i think i'm linguistically retarded as well
i realise i cannot speak properly, and i pick up foreign language very slowly
aish
but i actually am really interested in doing well for french
it's interesting :)

appeal for korean mod was rejected T-T
nvr mind
shall try to get it next sem

i'm still very much in the holiday mood

the Romeo cd (SHINee) that i ordered were finally shipped out today
FINALLY
supposed to be on 12th but drag until today
i already wait until buey tahan already
urgh
now just need to wait 4-14 days for it to come to my house
i hope that it is closer to 4 days -___-""
than i can get to see their handsome mug in the pictorial book :)
AHAHAHAHA can't wait already

Azumanga Daioh

I love this anime
it's just so lame, and meaningless
just what my life needs

new semester

even with all the familiar faces
the occassional smiles directed at me
i feel more alone than before

sometimes it's great to be a loner in school
not being restrained by others
not needing to bother to try to be liked by the people (all of them are not my style, no chemistry LOL)

but it just feels bad to not have something to look forward to
or not to have someone to lame around with
or not to have someone to complain/comment about the lecturer/tutor/course/life

sighs
i hope that this is a sign that my period is coming
although i do not enjoy having it
not having it for more than 3 months worries me (i didn't have it last sem at all)

ok that's tmi
not going for lecture tmr
can't be bothered

randomness songs

I love honey stars !
because they're tasty ~
They are yummy scrummy crunchy little stars ~
(this song stops abruptly, causing an awkward moment where people seem to wanna kill me, i don't sing it often, only to myself)

Starry Starry Night ~ (echo ~) x2
everything's so starry
everything's so beau-ti-fulllll (woooo)

Show how you get the formula-lalala ~

I need to pee (pee x6) ~

Where did it go ? The little rubber band ~
Is it on the table or on the floor ~
Did iii-t run, all the way to the beach, all the way to the sea, and off to France

I am rotting away ~
Just rotting away ~
I am rotting away ~
In this very room ~

In old pokemon theme song tune :
Hairy Bikers !
every biker has a choice
to be fat or not to be fat
they can eat all the bad stuff
or choose to eat all the good stuff
THEEEYYY HAVE A CHOICE
they can choose to be fat
they can choose to be fit
they caaaan choose what they want
they caaan beee fit
BUT THEY ARE FAT
(lyrics are made up as i go on, it is different everytime i sing it, even the subject might change eg. I may sing about my brother's stinky hair, ... etc.)

HAHAHA laming around
just wanted to reminisce on the random impromtu 'songs' that i came up with in the past
apparently i was doing it since secondary school
coz my sec sch friends said i came up with a lameded song as well
but i don't really recall the song, lousy memory you know
maybe i am just unconsciously blocking out the embarrasing memories
but i remember the songs above

what's most important is that they keep me entertained

SHINee is starring in another reality show, where they take care of a baby
hmm
by the time all the episodes come out, and gets subbed, it should be in the midst of the summer holidays
HAHAHAHAHA that'll be a great time to obsess about them again
motivation to study hard LOL

1st day of school

was uber boring
ugh the lecturers were both foreign, and their accents makes me want to sleep
just looking at the course name ... Doing Social Research... urks me to no ends
i HATE needing to talk to random people to get info out of them
that's the biggest put off in Sociology for me... i'm looking for one sociology module where i would not have to interact with people ...
AHAHAHAHA
put up an appeal for korean module today
AHAHAHA wish me luck
i put the reason for appeal as a recently developed interest in korean music and variety programs
AHAHAHA omo the person looking at it must be like -___-""" must be another fangirl type LOL
but they're WRONG

I'm auntiefan

SHINeefanauntie to be exact
omg can't wait for their romeo mini album to come... it'll only arrive next week i think.... they look damn good in that album LOL

bad hair

i think i need to cut my hair short during the holidays
very short, tempted to shave it off and coop myself at home watching shinee vids LOL
but need to work, and looking like a mental retard won't help me get any jobs
my hair's just tooo damaged
i just went to trim it yesterday, and after that i could find split ends already
today i checked again, and i found that there were still tons of split ends
it's beyond the point of saving

sighs
i hate my wire-ry hair

timetable

omg
FIVE DAY WEEK
and i wanted to take 6 courses, but i only got 5, the rest cannot make it
and i got French -___-"""
would have preferred the soci course
omg and the exam dates are like
one after the other
French on monday 5pm then next morning 9am got core mod exam
feel like dropping the french course (totally screwed up the choices) but then i would not have enough courses then
urgh
gonna appeal
hope to get into another course
tempted by korea lang course LOL so that i can understand what SHINee is singing ...
URGH
feeling damn sian now

new year's resolutions

1) Not gain weight. I think i gained 4kg during this shitass holidays, i gain weight too easily, i've stopped eating fast food for 2 weeks already and i hope i don't go back... craving a mcspicy now.

2) Study harder. Like, at least get all my readings done.

3) Be more conherent, in speech and writing. I realise that i'm talking and writing more and more gibberish, need to improve my ...... i don't know what's the word for it, damn.

4) Be happy. And try to talk to my course mates and stop being so outcast loner in school.

5) Get nicer clothes.

hmmm, looks achievable accept for the study harder part...

tired

omg went walking at mount faber
walked all the way from some canopy walk
to a horticulture park (which was really really nice omo)
to treetop walk
finally to mount faber
along the way i fell down omg shitass damn clumsy
i didn't see the step, i just saw flat ground
but then there was a step
scraped my knee
i hate the grosseded scab that forms in these sorta wounds
shit ass too clumsy
from young i've been falling down alot till now wtf
maybe my ass to big that's why my center of balance is off

i think that's the reason ... tsk

the whole walk took like .... forever
was like 6-7 km or so
but there were tons of stairs going uphill
and we took a wrong turn -____-" so walked longer uphill
urgh
i'm damn unhealthy already, need to exercise
next month maybe going for macritchie treetop walk
which i heard was really long and quite tiring too
-____-"""
just hope i don't fall down again

but i finally got to eat my bibimbab
omg i craved for a few weeks already
yummy
i love it
:) :) :)

yeps
i'm just rambling now
cheerios